Why I Hate The Concept Of Marks

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I never feel like I’m truly learning, I’m just trying to do something for its numbers.

It’s a pretty well-known fact that I don’t like school.

All my stories have been about me feeling negative in school and trying to escape it.

But I never really talked about why I hate school so much.

First, there’s a bunch of emotions regarding status that makes me want to run away from school.

Having just received low marks, I push out anger onto our education system because of my fear of being made fun by people close to me. And also fear of not being good enough.

Once I get past that, I still don’t like school.

I don’t ever remember a time in my life where I liked school, even when I was good at it. It was only tolerable when I was actually a good student.

So I’ve been deeply self-reflecting. Why do I truly dislike school?

It’s not like I hate learning. Quite the opposite, I love learning. Every day, I make it my goal to learn something new.

I just didn’t believe school was the best place to learn, especially as a Gen Z who grew up with the Internet and information abundance.